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last paper was damn shiok. i heart math. hahaha. have my god-sent tuition teacher and soooper math class teacher to thank for that. it's that feeling that i really don't care what marks i get cos i tried my best and felt good during the exam. first time i've felt this way about any paper. and i guess the feeling that i know so much more than before as well :D i think the difference btwn math and all the other subjects is that my input is directly proportional to my output. perhaps it's cos of the tutor's ability to spot qtns ahhaha. so whatever he teaches WILL come out.
but then i start to wonder if i'm being too dependent on others. in uni (if i even make it there) i prob won't get half as much help as i am getting now. so basically what is the whole purpose of studying. i have pretty much figured out that i am incapable of learning on my own and require immense help from others to understand so-called "basic" things. eegah. it's like if i haven't been taught how to do the question before i am not likely able to get it right. how to survive in uni like that.
haven't studied this hard for exams in my life (so far). so finishing the last paper felt superrrr shiok. while taking the papers this wk i couldn't help but be reminded of block tests. and everything surrounding it. the thoughts of "what i was feeling like the last time i was sitting here for this paper".
CL "A"s coming. i have started watching more chinese shows. they're pretty addictive. first it was the chunchun show, now it's the cop show with rui en and chen han wei (who looks like he's aged since his guitar playing days). wld be much more fun without the COMMERCIAL BREAKS though. hehhh.
I HATE IT WHEN YOU TELL ME TO WRITE THINGS DOWN. why must i do an AAR for every damn thing. my life isn't just a pile of paperwork. not to me at least.